Deliverance is about what I went through the first time. And I

There are words born not from theory, but from the hard soil of experience — words spoken by one who has walked through failure and come out tempered by truth. The artist Bubba Sparxxx, reflecting on his early struggles in the world of music, once said: “Deliverance is about what I went through the first time. And I chalk it up as a learning experience.” In these few, humble lines, there is a wisdom that transcends the realm of music. It is the voice of a man who has faced his trials, embraced them without bitterness, and found in them the seed of growth. His words echo the timeless law of the spirit: that deliverance does not come by escaping pain, but by learning from it.

The meaning of his words reveals a universal truth. When Bubba Sparxxx speaks of “Deliverance,” he refers not only to his album, but to the act of liberation — the inner journey from confusion to understanding, from error to enlightenment. He admits that the path was not smooth, that his early years in fame and failure taught him lessons he did not expect to learn. Yet rather than curse the hardship, he calls it a learning experience. In doing so, he transforms suffering into wisdom, loss into education, and regret into renewal. This is the art of the resilient soul: to see one’s scars not as shame, but as scripture.

The origin of this truth lies deep in human experience. Every generation discovers it anew. The ancient Greeks called it pathei mathos — “learning through suffering.” They believed that wisdom was not granted by comfort, but by trial. The soul, they said, grows strong in the furnace of experience. Bubba Sparxxx, though a man of modern music, speaks with this same ancient voice. His “Deliverance” was not merely artistic, but spiritual — the kind of awakening that comes when one has faced failure, tasted disappointment, and yet chosen to rise again, changed but unbroken.

History, too, bears witness to this principle. Consider the story of Nelson Mandela, who endured twenty-seven years of imprisonment, stripped of freedom, dignity, and time. Yet when he emerged from Robben Island, he did not speak of revenge, but of learning — learning patience, forgiveness, and the power of unity. His “deliverance” was not from the prison walls, but from the hatred that might have enslaved his soul. Like Bubba’s reflection, Mandela’s story shows that deliverance is not about escaping difficulty, but about being transformed by it into something greater, wiser, and freer.

There is a profound humility in acknowledging one’s past as a lesson rather than a curse. Many, when faced with failure, turn bitter; they hide from their mistakes or blame others. But the wise, like Sparxxx, stand before their past as before an old teacher — one who may have been harsh, but whose lessons endure. This kind of acceptance requires courage, for it means taking full ownership of one’s journey, light and shadow alike. Only those who accept their past without denial can truly learn from it, and through that learning, find deliverance.

In this way, Bubba Sparxxx reminds us that life’s early struggles are not wasted if they lead us toward insight. Every failure becomes a stepping stone, every heartbreak a hidden instructor. We must therefore approach hardship not as punishment, but as initiation — the necessary trial that refines the heart. The ancient alchemists believed that base metal could be turned to gold only by enduring the heat of the crucible. So too must we be tested, so that our spirit, once hardened by pride, may be purified into understanding.

Let this be the lesson, then, for all who seek freedom of the soul: your deliverance will not come when your troubles end, but when you learn what they were sent to teach you. Do not run from pain; reflect upon it. Do not hide from your past; study it with compassion. Every mistake holds a message, every sorrow holds a seed of strength. As Bubba Sparxxx discovered, the first journey through darkness is rarely perfect — but if you emerge wiser, humbler, and more aware, then you have not failed; you have learned. And in learning, you have begun the sacred work of deliverance — the liberation not of circumstance, but of the soul itself.