A child understands fear, and the hurt and hate it brings.
Host: The wind howled through the cracks of the small apartment window, carrying the sound of distant sirens and the faint cry of a stray dog in the alley below. It was winter in Johannesburg, 1985 — though it could’ve been any city, any time, where fear had learned to wear a human face.
The walls were bare except for a single photograph — a child with wide eyes, half-smiling, half-watching. The lightbulb overhead flickered, throwing the room into brief, rhythmic darkness.
Jack sat near the window, his hands pressed together, jaw tight, eyes fixed on the empty street. Jeeny sat on the floor beside a small heater, knees pulled close, face half-lit by the orange glow. Between them, silence — not the easy kind, but the kind filled with ghosts.
Jeeny: “Nadine Gordimer once said — ‘A child understands fear, and the hurt and hate it brings.’”
Jack: (without looking up) “She would know. South Africa taught entire generations that lesson before they could even read.”
Host: The heater hissed softly, its metal trembling with heat. A faint scent of burnt dust filled the air, mingling with the damp smell of rain leaking in through the cracks.
Jeeny: “Fear has no language barrier. Every child, no matter where they’re born, learns it early — through shouting, through silence, through the way adults stop smiling.”
Jack: (grimly) “And they learn hate as a kind of shield. You can’t blame them. When you’re scared long enough, hate starts to look like safety.”
Jeeny: “But that’s the tragedy. We teach children to survive by hardening them. And then we grow up wondering why the world feels cold.”
Host: Jack finally turned, his face pale in the half-light, his eyes sharp but tired — a man who’d seen too many versions of the same story in too many cities.
Jack: “You’re speaking like someone who’s never had to fight to stay alive. Fear isn’t a lesson — it’s instinct. It keeps you breathing.”
Jeeny: “But what kind of life is that? Breathing isn’t living, Jack. It’s just surviving the next minute.”
Jack: (with a harsh laugh) “Try telling that to a refugee, or a soldier, or a kid growing up in a slum. Fear’s the only thing that keeps them alert. Love won’t warn you before a gun goes off.”
Jeeny: “And yet it’s fear that pulls the trigger, Jack.”
Host: The words hit the room like a stone through glass. The silence that followed was jagged — not empty, but dense with unspoken memory. Jack’s hand tightened around his mug, knuckles whitening.
Jeeny: (softly) “Do you remember that photo from Vietnam — the little girl running naked down the road, covered in burns? Kim Phúc. I read her words once: she said, ‘The doctors helped heal my wounds, but only forgiveness can heal my heart.’ Even she — a child who lived through hell — chose to forgive. She refused to let fear turn into hate.”
Jack: “And how many didn’t? For every story like hers, there are a thousand who grew up broken. You can’t build peace on exceptions.”
Jeeny: “Maybe not. But those exceptions — they remind us we’re not doomed. That even in fear, there’s still choice.”
Host: The wind outside rattled the windowpane, making it quiver like a trapped breath. A distant car alarm went off, then faded into the night.
Jack: “Fear is honest, Jeeny. It tells you exactly who you are when there’s no one left to impress. It strips you down to bone.”
Jeeny: “No — it distorts you. It makes you less. A frightened child lashes out, but only because they haven’t been shown another way. We grow up thinking fear is truth — but it’s just the shadow of love, warped and hungry.”
Jack: “You always talk about love as if it can erase damage.”
Jeeny: “Not erase. Transform.”
Host: Her voice was steady now — the kind that didn’t try to convince, only reveal. Jack exhaled slowly, his breath visible in the cold air, his eyes glinting with something halfway between anger and grief.
Jack: “You know, when I was ten, I used to hide under the kitchen table when my father got drunk. I didn’t hate him at first. I just wanted him to stop yelling. But after a while, the fear turned into something sharper. Something that made me wish him gone. That’s how it begins. You call it tragedy. I call it adaptation.”
Jeeny: (quietly) “And did it make you feel safe?”
Jack: (after a pause) “…No. Just numb.”
Host: The room seemed to grow smaller, the walls closing in with the weight of that single word. Jeeny’s eyes softened, her fingers brushing against the cold floor, grounding her in the moment.
Jeeny: “That’s what Gordimer was trying to say. Fear doesn’t protect — it deforms. It turns children into survivors before they’ve learned how to be human.”
Jack: “Then what’s the alternative? Pretend the world’s gentle? Tell them lies?”
Jeeny: “No. Tell them the truth — but not without hope. Teach them that fear is a visitor, not a master.”
Host: The heater flickered, its light dancing briefly across their faces. For the first time, Jack’s features softened — not in surrender, but in exhaustion.
Jack: “You talk like you’ve seen children untouched by fear. There’s no such thing.”
Jeeny: “There is. I’ve seen them in clinics — children who’ve lost everything, but still share their bread with another. Fear doesn’t erase compassion, Jack. It only buries it until someone digs deep enough.”
Jack: “And who’s supposed to do the digging?”
Jeeny: “We are. Every one of us who remembers what it felt like to be afraid — and refuses to pass it on.”
Host: The rain returned, this time softer, almost cleansing. It tapped gently on the glass, like the world trying to whisper an apology. Jack stood and walked to the window, his reflection pale and ghostly against the night.
Jack: (low) “You really believe fear can be unlearned?”
Jeeny: “It has to be. Or the world keeps raising broken adults out of scared children.”
Host: Jack turned, the city light from outside catching the edge of his face — one side in shadow, the other in amber glow. He looked at Jeeny like a man who wanted to believe but didn’t know how.
Jack: “You think it’s possible to teach love after the hate’s already settled?”
Jeeny: “It’s never too late to remember softness. Even stone remembers water, Jack. It just takes time.”
Host: A small smile ghosted across his lips, gone almost as soon as it appeared. The heater went out with a faint click, plunging the room into colder, quieter air.
Jack: “You always find the poetry in pain.”
Jeeny: “And you always find the truth beneath it.”
Host: The silence that followed wasn’t heavy this time. It was fragile, but peaceful — like the pause between sobs, the breath after survival. Outside, the city exhaled — lights shimmering against the last of the storm.
Jack walked back toward the photo on the wall — the child with wide eyes. He stared for a long time, then spoke softly, almost to himself.
Jack: “Maybe that’s what she meant. That children understand fear — not because they’re weak, but because they still feel everything. Before we learn to hide it.”
Jeeny: “Yes. They feel the world honestly — before we teach them to numb it. And maybe that’s where healing begins: by daring to feel again.”
Host: The camera pulled back slowly — past the flickering light, past the worn floorboards, past the window that framed the faint city glow.
Outside, the storm had passed. The streets glistened, and somewhere in the distance, a child’s laughter echoed faintly through the night — brief, pure, unbroken.
And as Jack and Jeeny sat together in the fading light, one could almost hear Nadine Gordimer’s truth lingering in the air — not as despair, but as a warning and a promise:
Fear is learned early. But so is love.
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