We're a family with a pretty light sense of humor but, still, on
We're a family with a pretty light sense of humor but, still, on the anniversary of my mom's passing we don't feel like getting 'colorful' and remembering her favorite foods. Every March 5th, the anniversary of her passing, we go to church and are sad for pretty much the rest of the day.
Host: The late afternoon light drifted through the stained glass windows of a small church on the corner of an old neighborhood street. Dust hung in the air like quiet ashes, swirling through the colored beams — amber, blue, crimson. The world outside hummed faintly — the sound of a car passing, a dog barking, children playing somewhere far enough away that their laughter sounded like memory.
Inside, the air was still. The scent of wax and flowers — lilies, mostly — filled the space, sweet but heavy. In the fourth pew from the front sat Jack, shoulders squared, hands clasped tightly, as if holding something invisible. Jeeny sat beside him, her black hair falling over her shoulder, a single small candle flickering between them.
They didn’t speak for a long while.
Jeeny: softly “Marcela Valladolid once said, ‘We’re a family with a pretty light sense of humor but, still, on the anniversary of my mom’s passing we don’t feel like getting colorful or remembering her favorite foods. Every March 5th, we go to church and are sad for pretty much the rest of the day.’”
Host: The words drifted between them, landing softly, like petals in water. Jack didn’t look up. His jaw tightened, the muscle flickering beneath his skin.
Jack: “There’s something honest about that. No pretending, no forced celebration. Just sadness — the kind you earn.”
Jeeny: “I think that’s why it feels sacred. Not everything has to be turned into a festival to prove love.”
Jack: “People forget that grief’s not a performance. Sometimes it’s just sitting in the silence and letting it ache.”
Host: The candle crackled softly, its small flame struggling against the faint breeze from the door.
Jeeny: “You come here every year, don’t you?”
Jack: “Yeah. Same time. Same pew.”
Jeeny: “You never told me why.”
Jack: quietly “Because she sat right here. Every Sunday. Even when she got too weak to stand. She’d hum through the hymns, off-key but smiling. I come here to remember the sound.”
Jeeny: gently “You don’t talk about her much.”
Jack: “There’s not much to say. I just miss her.”
Host: The last words hung heavy, almost breaking. Outside, a bell tolled — slow, steady, echoing through the walls.
Jeeny: “You know, people think healing means forgetting sadness. But maybe healing just means learning to carry it with grace.”
Jack: “Grace. She used to say that word a lot.”
Jeeny: “What did it mean to her?”
Jack: “Forgiveness. For everyone. For herself. Even when she didn’t deserve it.”
Jeeny: smiling faintly “That’s the kind of strength I envy.”
Host: The church light dimmed as the sun lowered, and the shadows grew long across the marble floor. The mosaic behind the altar glowed faintly, golden edges catching the last light.
Jack: “You know what I hate most about days like this?”
Jeeny: “What?”
Jack: “People mean well. They tell you to ‘celebrate her life,’ to cook her favorite food, play her favorite songs. But some memories aren’t meant to be bright. They’re meant to stay quiet — sacred. Like this.”
Jeeny: “It’s okay to grieve quietly. Love doesn’t always have to smile.”
Jack: “Yeah. Some love just kneels.”
Host: Jeeny reached across the small wooden pew and placed her hand over his. His hand was cold, unmoving for a moment — then he returned the gesture, his fingers curling around hers.
Jeeny: “When my father passed, I tried to do the same — to keep it light, to remember the good things. But every time I laughed, I felt guilty. Like joy was betrayal.”
Jack: “Yeah. That’s the trick of grief. It makes you afraid to feel alive again.”
Jeeny: “But maybe that’s where faith comes in — not as religion, but as permission. The faith that love still exists beyond the hurt.”
Host: A few remaining candles flickered near the altar, their flames swaying gently, tiny souls whispering upward. The church was almost empty now. The echo of footsteps — an old woman lighting her own candle, crossing herself — was the only movement in the space.
Jack: “She’d have liked you. You’d have argued about everything, but you’d have liked each other.”
Jeeny: “Maybe that’s her way of staying — through the people who still remember.”
Jack: “I don’t know. Some days it feels like remembering keeps her close. Other days, it just reminds me how far away she is.”
Jeeny: “Both can be true.”
Host: The clock in the back of the church struck six. The sound rang through the stone walls like an old truth — that time moves whether hearts are ready or not.
Jeeny: “You think sadness ever stops?”
Jack: “No. It just softens. Like an echo fading — still there, just quieter.”
Jeeny: “And you keep coming back to this place.”
Jack: “Because it’s the only place that doesn’t tell me to move on.”
Host: Outside, the rain began to fall softly, the drops tapping against the stained glass like fingers on memory. Jeeny stood, walking to the candle stand. She lit another small flame beside Jack’s and whispered something too soft to hear.
Jack watched her — her grace, her quiet defiance against the emptiness.
Jeeny turned back. “What would she have wanted you to do after all this?”
Jack: “Keep living. Keep cooking. Keep laughing.” He paused, a faint smile breaking through the grief. “She used to say humor is heaven’s medicine.”
Jeeny: “Then maybe that’s how you honor her — by finding the light again. Not to replace the sorrow, but to stand beside it.”
Host: The rain outside grew heavier, drumming gently against the windows, the rhythm of endings and beginnings blending together.
Jack: “You ever notice how churches always smell the same? Even when everything else changes?”
Jeeny: “Because they’re built on memory. Every wall, every candle holds someone’s story.”
Jack: “Then I guess she’s part of this place now.”
Jeeny: “No, Jack. She’s part of you.”
Host: He nodded slowly, his eyes glistening but steady. Together they stood, watching the flames dance in the dim church light — two small lights against the quiet dark.
Jack: “You know, maybe that’s what grief really is. Not a wound — a second heartbeat.”
Jeeny: “Yes. It beats for two — for the one who’s gone, and the one still learning to live without them.”
Host: The camera lingered on the candles — steady, trembling, alive. The rain softened, the sound turning into a hush, like the sky itself had begun to pray.
Jack and Jeeny walked toward the door, the wooden floor creaking beneath their steps. Jack paused, looking back once more at the pew, at the single candle still burning alone.
He smiled — small, genuine, forgiving.
Jack: “Goodnight, Mom.”
Host: As they stepped out into the rain, the streetlights flickered to life, glowing against the wet pavement. The city shimmered with reflections — grief and grace mingling in every drop.
And as they walked away, Jeeny whispered — almost to herself —
Jeeny: “Some anniversaries aren’t about celebration. They’re about remembrance. About giving love permission to be sad.”
Host: And somewhere, beyond the reach of tears or time, a mother’s spirit smiled — because love, no matter how heavy, had been remembered honestly.
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